One year on

and I find I am still breathing,

feeling,

loving,

holding my life in my hands

one year on

and I find I am void of anger,

bitterness,

holding still, a little disappointment

one year on,

I find much is the same,

friends, family

others,

holding me back from shadow

one year on

and I find I like myself, 

no longer lost,

hidden, 

settling for less, for the sake of  'us',

holding on to the real me again

one year on,

and I find much is different,

mostly within me,

I hunger for life

I thirst for courage

I mostly breathe

in wonder

one year on

and I find I am filled with curiosity,

realising that what was, isn't all there is,

isn't all there should be,

holding out for a better way,

a better me

14th February 2011