Sit & watch or jump in?

we sit on the periphery...
the main performance is fear....
we take steps and begin a journey that we are not always able to attend....
we anticipate and enjoy the planning but sometimes the road is too steep and we are ill prepared...
we live learning about our limitations...

we are not limitless ...

the boundaries are there for a reason and we shift and break them, then run back to their safety...

often I just want to sit on the sidelines and watch, people watching, watching life before my eyes...

it takes my breath away, the fragility of it, one moment it's here, the next it is in danger...

I have met some very brave women here, they speak to me directly it seems, through their writing...

I am ashamed of my vulnerabilities, my fears, my inability to live life bravely..

I forget that this is it, life, and that it isn't a rehearsal, and time is always passing...

I stand in awe at my friends' bravery, their will, their strength...

I yearn that I too, can find the hope, to jump in wholeheartedly

and join the show that is the NOW