and so it continues...

life, the universe, everything...
it carries on regardless AND so too shall I..
after a rather bumpy couple of weeks,
whereby the saz train was delayed and derailed....
and laid up in sidings

service continues as 'normal'
and thus I stoicially plod on

shit happens
and I know. as I am used to this shit, however surprising, however shocking
and saddened I am...

I have come this far and by god I am not done by a long chalk
...and so here I go again, reinventing myself, minus some baggage, bruised
and saddened by yet another betrayl

I am gonna shoot for the moon and hope for the stars...
so watch out as I am a little hungry for some fun, kindness and a smidgeon of love...apparently it's all around

or so they say...

and yes the sun is out finally in Cumbria!
Saz x

TRYING TO BELIEVE IN SUMMER

Yes !! I know this is a hard one, considering the amount of rain and strong winds we seem to be having here in Cumbria..

Even so, I defy the weather and wear open toed sandals or flips flops daily, event hough I feel like a wet fish when I get home...my sunglasses are permanently across the bridge of my nose...and I omit to take a cardigan out most day, in sheer defiance and stupidity..

I have been to one BBQ so far this year, for Charlotte's birthday bash...

Mostly I sit in the back yard. or lay in the hammock, swinging and hoping we get a few HOT days

so come on now, don't be shy, show yourself sunshine.. 

Saz x

dating blind

....ugh!! I have always said, I don't want to date! I really loathe the idea! I haven't ever really done it.... oh a few times way back in the 1900's...

If I'm meant to meet someone then he'll find me, this makes sense dontcha think? The few relationships I've had, and I think they total TWO in my adult life, we've just happened upon each other.. et voila!

To arrange, and manipulate strikes me that I will appear desperate! And that I am not...well maybe a bit, though not to meet, greet and marry you understand, been there done that.. I cannot imagine doing that again, aint gonna have more kids so what is the point!

So the story is, my pal knows a guy, a work colleague....and apparently told him that he should meet me, as in she thinks we are suited...now bear in mind she knows my story, knows how I feel about dating and knows that although I am 'open' to the idea.. I kind of can't be arsed....and yet she knows I have needs. Well not necessarily those kind of needs, (omg lets not go there) the kind of, lets have some fun needs, share a meal, watch a film (all the way through!), yes companionship is the word I'm chasing...simples?!

anyway..my pal is having a get together with work pals, as I work around the corner she is gonna ask me too...now I know I am protesting just a tad too much perhaps....but it is terrifying, he has seen a pic of me, (at my best, no specs, spanx under the dress taken last summer) I have no idea what I am in for....except, he is said to be tall, blonde, handsome, single (most important, but why is he still single??) works out (oh great, I do not, I am all flip floppy) doesn't smoke (I do ), dances (I cannot!) and the down side is that he is younger than me, (been there done that, got first degree burns, so not a good idea, makes me feel like an experiment)... I may feel 17 inside but I certainly am old enough to know better...

What am I to do, just get with the program?? I think it's less stressful to stay home with Monty...

My pal says, 'do you think Saz that I would introduce you to a boring twat?'

I guess not... watch this space

Saz x

morning glorious...

no longer dragging my bones into

my stuffy uniform

and sloughing my feet down the hill 

to a long day of boredom, 

with too much time to think
I have a new purpose,
into which I can channel my energies and drive...

I now am a whirling dervish of enthusiasm,
bustle and hustle
and my days, often all seven of them,
have a focus, at my new store
that is challenging and exciting,
a pulse long overdue

... and so begins each new day

as I grab some juice, a cuppa 

and toast,

and pad into the back yard...

the sun is already hotting up, 

and the blazing sunlight
enhances the home grown florals

I can't help but smile
 in response to this morning glorious
which greets me,
at the start of my day...

who knows
what the day will bring...!

Saz x

not there yet

not there yet.... 

if I let go it may no longer feel real...

I still want him so....

Saz x

still

when it's real
you still live in the moment

when it's real
you can still feel it

when it's real
you still want him
need him

when it's real
you can still see him

when it's real
you can still feel him

when it's real
you still want to share every little thing

when it's real
you think about him all the time

when it's real
you still love him

when it's real
you still throb at the thought

when it's real
you still can't believe it

when it's real
you still smile

when it's real
it's never over

.............. even when it is

Saz March 2013

Introducing 'Warwick Tower'

I've been quiet for a month or so now, but I have been oh so busy!

As you know in the background I have been plotting with my biz partner Stuart; after the success of our Vintage fairs we decided over a year ago to take time to find premises, which was no cheap task as commercial property rents are very expensive on the high street. Undeterred we finally found a venue in an old iconic city centre building above a long established cooker shop, over three floors, containing 13 rooms of very differing sizes.

Stuart and I are like-minded in our passion for vintage fashion and all things antique, vintage and retro and dedicated to helping others unable to hit the high street flying solo, to begin their dreams by getting together and building within a community seeking similar goals. We have both had a terrible year in our personal lives,  full of drama and heartache and although these feelings and pain resonate still, I believe that he, like myself, needed a new challenge and a purpose to fill our unhappy and and lacklustre lives. We are both resilient and have vision and I am thankful for this, else I wouldn't, nay couldn't, have done this without him.
Thanks Stuart.

And so today in the middle of our lovelee Launch Weekend, two weeks after getting the keys to the front door, it has begun...

just found this review by a friendly visitor to our preview evening on friday...
http://soozintheshed.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/the-opening-of-warwick-tower.html

the following links take you to our facebook pages, the Before and After ...so if you are signed up you can get a look inside..if not sign up take a peek, then cancel, you don't have to post anything or start a page...

D-Day minus 2 weeks @warwick tower, Carlisle, Cumbria

warwick tower launch weekend

And so now I am living my career dream, I resign from the Museum after ten years on Monday, I am excited and a wee bit scared...it is a dream come true, it can happen! Mostly it does not...I know that, but I can still hope for some things, can't I? Even though they seem impossible from where I am sitting....

Never give up eh?

Saz x