Tuesday, 8 March 2011
I have just been.... still, watching, waiting, mulling, living.
I haven't been particularly busy, but I have been thinking a lot...and thinking time is the best of times (it can be crap too) but I like the way that problems, answers to questions and general musings mutate into solutions.
And when l say thinking time, l am not frenetically analysing stuff, I am just absorbing and letting things wash over me. This is not something l would usually do. But then this is not my usual. It's my now. And so I just accept it. And each day a problem turns into a solution, general niggles seem to right themselves.
The blog(s) have filled a hole, have kept me company, entertained, enriched and consoled me and sometimes divided my own opinions. A crutch. A friend. indeed.
As l make my own way. find my space. open my eyes and watch and listen. I find I am comfortable in just letting the tide come in and then as it must, go out.
I think perhaps letting go and believing in self is the key here. The realisation of it all, just takes time.
at 10:21 pm