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Times passes...

it's been nearly a month since l last posted and l don't know where the time has gone. I haven't posted because I haven't thought of a blog post, a topic, haven't felt the need to rant, cry or cheer.

I have just been.... still, watching, waiting, mulling, living.

I haven't been particularly busy, but I have been thinking a lot...and thinking time is the best of times (it can be crap too) but I like the way that problems, answers to questions and general musings mutate into solutions.

And when l say thinking time, l am not frenetically analysing stuff, I am just absorbing and letting things wash over me. This is not something l would usually do. But then this is not my usual. It's my now. And so I just accept it. And each day a problem turns into a solution, general niggles seem to right themselves.

The blog(s) have filled a hole, have kept me company, entertained, enriched and consoled me and sometimes divided my own opinions. A crutch. A friend. indeed.

As l make my own way. find my space. open my eyes and watch and listen. I find I am comfortable in just letting the tide come in and then as it must, go out.

I think perhaps letting go and believing in self is the key here. The realisation of it all,  just takes time.

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  1. You've certainly arrived in a good place, Saz. Such peace here. I can't imagine such a duration of peace. I laugh. It's such a short lived thing for me.

    Your new photo says alot too. You're beautiful here.

    xo
    erin

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  2. Sometimes the solutions that appear involve abandoning the problems. Ignoring things is underrated.

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  3. New photo is lovely....new Saz seems to be calm, and growing in confidence and moving forward...the best path.

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  4. Very philosophical - and you even have a new photo to match the mood!

    That sort of thinking is the best and usually leads to good things.

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  5. Although I usually try to stay fairly current with my blog reading (sometimes though -like now -I let several days pass without reading and then, go into a frenzy to get caught up on that again) but often of late, when I do read, I don't comment because of various reasons I conjure up in my mind. Mainly, I go into these slumps I guess you could say, where I just think I have nothing to say, nothing of value to contribute to the cause ya know. Lately, that's been the case. Not that the blogs weren't worthy, but rather that the onus was on me to speak and I just couldn't -or can't -bring myself to do that some days. Then, things begin to pass and my voice starts to return again. Maybe that's finally happening again. Hope so anyway! And if not, I'll do as you say you're doing -just let things wash over me until such time when I feel the words coming to me again. Peace.

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  6. smiling at your sense of peace and understanding. :) lovely to see you in this space!

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  7. Very insightful ... you are evolving into your own person .. brava! xo

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  8. it certainly does. at least you are in the moment and feeling it all - that's gotta be good, right!?!?

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  9. Sometimes, I find that a full break from anything and everything of a daily routine nature is needed. The psyche needs to empty out every so often, no? Good for you for realizing that, in whatever way it came to you.

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  10. It's a massive learning curve isn't it? Have been learning to let things just happen too, not easy. Glad you have some answers

    Hugs

    X

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  11. Aaah. I can even feel the soft sound of the waves lapping at the shore when reading this - the tide washing over you - all good but selfishly don't lose the blogging!! I know what you mean - there are times when it just doesn't feel right Lx

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  12. i could use some of that tide time. i'm glad you're getting it. it's healing.

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  13. I am so glad you are beginning to come out the other side. I find solace from the slogans of Al-anon, even if the rest is a little difficult to swallow. They may help you too. http://www.addictionz.com/sloganz.htm

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  14. Time - you've located the key.

    Time is what it takes when you're awakening to a new dawn; when you're starting over; when you've ceased being half of a couple, but are now one person. It's a healing process, a learning process, and will ultimately yield great rewards - peace, serenity, forgiveness, comfort.

    Time is on your side - use it well.

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  15. Your last sentence sums it up nicely. Wise words to live by.

    xo jj

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  16. I've missed you, glad to read your blog again. Yes, time does heal, but, in my experience, the scars remain. They are what make us human. Who wants to be a Botoxed, wrinlke-free soul?

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  17. I can sense the peace that is coming from this post.
    You have travelled a long way.
    Maggie X

    Nuts in May

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  18. You will have to fix it for me to get you in the old way, had to make a tortuous journey through Google land to get here.

    Sleep tight. XXX

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