Monday, 14 February 2011

One year on

and I find I am still breathing,
feeling,
loving,
holding my life in my hands

one year on
and I find I am void of anger,
bitterness,
holding still, a little disappointment

one year on,
I find much is the same,
friends, family
others,
holding me back from shadow


one year on
and I find I like myself, 
no longer lost,
hidden, 
settling for less, for the sake of  'us',
holding on to the real me again


one year on,
and I find much is different,
mostly within me,
I hunger for life
I thirst for courage
I mostly breathe
in wonder

one year on
and I find I am filled with curiosity,
realising that what was, isn't all there is,
isn't all there should be,
holding out for a better way,

a better me



14th February 2011

24 comments:

  1. You go girl. Women survive this and are BETTER for it. you will be too. I am filled with hope right next to you!

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  2. Congrats to you! Keep on thinking about how far you have come, and what wonders lie ahead!

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  3. Lovely! keep smiling and moving on.

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  4. I promise you this, it gets easier, I am a lot further down the road than you and I like my life so much better now xxx

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  5. Sounds good - hope that 2011 is a good year for you!

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  6. Good on you darling'.Pa say's 'That's my girl'.

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  7. Finding that you like yourself is the best!

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  8. What an inspiring, moving and beautiful post, Saz - I'm sure many will relate to it. Love your writing.

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  9. the last stanza nails it! i believed you had it in you, that you were of such powerful stuff. saz. here you are. yes!

    xo
    erin

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  10. I haven't been on your blog for ages. I've just had a look at your artwork. I love the St Ives paintings especially.

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  11. Fantastic!! That is great news. Well done. x

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  12. Oh this is great! I noted your blog over at Hilary's and had to stop in, like the positive vibe to your words.

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  13. That is so beautiful to read,
    I am so happy for you.
    Warm big hug,
    Merisi

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  14. Sara
    I think the better you was always there. just needed to be uncaged.
    lovely thoughts
    ~rick

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  15. Brava .. you were always a fabulous woman now you are a happy fabulous woman!

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  16. getting lost in your work and past posts. What a cool chickie you are!

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  17. This is so simple, yet so intense. Personal, moving, inspiring.

    Better? Way to go!

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  18. I more-or-less gave you an award over at my place. If you're anything like me, I'm in serious trouble. Thank God, I'm pretty sure you aren't :-)

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  19. Just brilliant. So pleased you feel your own strength improving and that wonderful lust for life that reappears - it's just great Lx

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  20. this is a most fitting valentine to yourself. bravo!

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Thanks for stopping by!

Take the weight of your feet, draw up a chair and pour yourself a cuppa. Leave your troubles at the door and together we shall ride out the storms.
I will walk a while in your shoes...

Saz x