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One year on

and I find I am still breathing,
holding my life in my hands

one year on
and I find I am void of anger,
holding still, a little disappointment

one year on,
I find much is the same,
friends, family
holding me back from shadow

one year on
and I find I like myself, 
no longer lost,
settling for less, for the sake of  'us',
holding on to the real me again

one year on,
and I find much is different,
mostly within me,
I hunger for life
I thirst for courage
I mostly breathe
in wonder

one year on
and I find I am filled with curiosity,
realising that what was, isn't all there is,
isn't all there should be,
holding out for a better way,

a better me

14th February 2011


  1. You go girl. Women survive this and are BETTER for it. you will be too. I am filled with hope right next to you!

  2. Congrats to you! Keep on thinking about how far you have come, and what wonders lie ahead!

  3. Lovely! keep smiling and moving on.

  4. I promise you this, it gets easier, I am a lot further down the road than you and I like my life so much better now xxx

  5. Sounds good - hope that 2011 is a good year for you!

  6. Good on you darling'.Pa say's 'That's my girl'.

  7. Finding that you like yourself is the best!

  8. What an inspiring, moving and beautiful post, Saz - I'm sure many will relate to it. Love your writing.

  9. the last stanza nails it! i believed you had it in you, that you were of such powerful stuff. saz. here you are. yes!


  10. I haven't been on your blog for ages. I've just had a look at your artwork. I love the St Ives paintings especially.

  11. Fantastic!! That is great news. Well done. x

  12. Oh this is great! I noted your blog over at Hilary's and had to stop in, like the positive vibe to your words.

  13. That is so beautiful to read,
    I am so happy for you.
    Warm big hug,

  14. Sara
    I think the better you was always there. just needed to be uncaged.
    lovely thoughts

  15. Brava .. you were always a fabulous woman now you are a happy fabulous woman!

  16. getting lost in your work and past posts. What a cool chickie you are!

  17. This is so simple, yet so intense. Personal, moving, inspiring.

    Better? Way to go!

  18. I more-or-less gave you an award over at my place. If you're anything like me, I'm in serious trouble. Thank God, I'm pretty sure you aren't :-)

  19. Just brilliant. So pleased you feel your own strength improving and that wonderful lust for life that reappears - it's just great Lx

  20. this is a most fitting valentine to yourself. bravo!


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