Tuesday, 12 October 2010

Getting stuck in again...

It isn't New Year for sometime, even so I have never been a New Fear developing newyear-itus shortly after Boxing Day. Bah humbug and bad experiences have not enamoured me to the festivities. Although I am hopeful that I may even find myself enjoying the Eve in the future, perhaps in new company or a new space entirely. Who the hell knows!

I have never  been one to make foolhardy, spur of the moment, resolutions or four. The only ones I remember are the oft mentioned, ' I will lose weight' and the  ' I will stop smoking' ones. Funnily I have achieved both, (with the odd relapse) but not because of new year resolutions almost in spite of them!

The reason l mention resolutions is because I don't feel I need a reason, a kick up the backside or anything else for me to make changes. I just know I have to. Over the last few years due to a mix, of menopausal hormones, couch potato-itus and  slothlike bad habits, I mislaid my enthusiasm for almost anything or anyone except my children. I admit it. I became bored with housework. Bored with cooking. Bored with the same old repertoire. Bored with the day to day. I guess those around me did too. Though the kids rarely expressed this so obviously and cruelly as to call my cooking, slop to my face. But that is another story. And thinking ahead when the kids left for Uni or work or whatever I couldn't think of anything to look forward to, I had been there, done it, what else was there. I think I had resolved to just be. That is not enough. Not nearly. No way, no how.

I have started to rekindled my interest in cooking with so many new programmes and books out this time of year. How could l not, it  has helped reignite my gas hob(!) and I hope my enthusiasm for food and eating it is returning.

Many changes have taken place since February and you are probably just as tired of hearing about these as I am! But this is my space and this is one of the places I come back to often. I am able to look backwards over my shoulder, to the months and years l have written here and l know it is helpful to me to read these and reflect on the context of the time. I liken this place to the tv or radio; if you don't like what you are hearing then turn it/me off.

So I have decided to take up my studies again. These I began in 1999 and over the decade I have studied Humantites specialising in Art History with the Open University. I haven't been able to study every year and I had no particular goal other than to lry to learn again , to push myself academically and to try and enjoy the study ethic. I recently realised that I am 3/4 the way to getting a BA Degree. So I signed up for two courses next year with the Open University; Renaissance Rediscovered (Jan '11-Oct '11) and  The Art Residential School (May - Oct '11) with one week at Queen Mary, London University.  I have ordered the required books for preparatory reading, they shall keep me busy over the next couple of months. I hope it all comes back to me. Completing the degree in 2012 is the plan. I then hope to change track a little and study some Psychology courses.

Starting early next year I  have also enrolled on an Italian short course in the evening for a 6 weeks, because l love the sound and taste of the language. Luckily I am comfortable with languages,  I used to be fairly fluent in French and Mexican in my teens. Adding to this is a Silversmithing course and a Cookery weekend. I feel it is important for me to keep busy but not take on too much for fearing of burning out too soon.   I was giving a lot of thought to retraining but at 52 a 5 year learning plan isn't realistic. I hope the Degree may open some doors within the Museum for me, if not it will be a huge achievement and very satisfying.

It's about giving the love back to me.

                                                  Here is some 'slop' I prepared earlier.


           Olives, anchovies, chicken, baby pepperdews, plum tomatoes and  ...
after baking for 1.5 hours. Deee-lish!


14 comments:

  1. Congratulations on starting in again! I'd love to go back to Uni to take courses in literature and history - classes I wasn't allowed to take before because I was in teacher training and had to focus on my major. IF you pop over, you'll see I have new reasons for thinking about this, too, but first I'm going to travel a bit more - it will be 5 years since I've been to UK or Europe by the time I go again, hopefully next year! Keep us updated on how you get on.

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  2. It is always inspiring to learn something new...as long as it's enjoyable and not torture....I hate being bored so any course had better be damn good. At 56 I know what I like.....

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  3. Your cooking looks yummy! I am so impressed with your plans for your degree! Good for you! A few years ago, when I reached the frayed end of my tether, I decided to sign up for French lessons. I still am not fluent, but I made a couple of new friends which made the classes worth while. In fact, I am meeting one of them for lunch on Friday. Lucie and I plan to eat and tell jokes and laugh, and discuss our children, just to keep ourselves more (or less) sane. Good luck with your studies -- I'm sure you can do it. You are an inspiration to us all!
    Canadian Chickadee

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  4. Your cooking looks yummy! I am so impressed with your plans for your degree! Good for you! A few years ago, when I reached the frayed end of my tether, I decided to sign up for French lessons. I still am not fluent, but I made a couple of new friends which made the classes worth while. In fact, I am meeting one of them for lunch on Friday. Lucie and I plan to eat and tell jokes and laugh, and discuss our children, just to keep ourselves more (or less) sane. Good luck with your studies -- I'm sure you can do it. You are an inspiration to us all!
    Canadian Chickadee

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  5. I admire you for the ability to start learning again. I would really love to and even have all the material I need at home, yet I keep finding other things to do (like nothing) to keep me from studying. Glad not everybody is like me!

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  6. I am so pleased you are picking up your OU studies again. I've also just got two left until the D Day (degree day) but because I hope to begin NVQs shortly in social care my OU degree will just have to wait.

    Here's to us - two people who are still enthused enough to learn and who one day might even meet up - although let's make it a foursome for lunch with Fhina and Moannie.

    x

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  7. Its always wonderful to learn something new .. I smiled reading you spoke some Mexican .. I didnt realize Spanish and Mexican were different tho I do realize there's that accent/class thing ...

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  8. Well done for celebrating you...and your food looks gorgeous.

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  9. I wish I had time to do a few courses,good luck with them and BTW the food looks delicious.

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  10. Sounds good idea! Hope you open new doors in your mind, even if not in the Museum.

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  11. You are simply amazing, dearest Saz!!! So much talent, delightful person...and beauty!!! I so admire you!!! And so thrilled for you!!! Sending you much love!!! Janine XO

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  12. We do need to shake up our lives now and then, don't we? Going back to school sounds great, but our universities are crowded and not everyone who wants to can go. Should I, in my seventies, crowd out a young person just beginning to build their life? It's a tough question. Could I handle it if I was the one who didn't get in? Sure. There's lots to do, I just need to keep it fresh and not be in a rut.

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  13. I am very proud of you! Well done - That sounds so trite, but know that I mean it from my full heart - Full of joy for you x

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  14. Sounds like you've turned a corner and got your mojo back! Yay!

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Thanks for stopping by!

Take the weight of your feet, draw up a chair and pour yourself a cuppa. Leave your troubles at the door and together we shall ride out the storms.
I will walk a while in your shoes...

Saz x